Obdurate Paths
Letter #34
(Hope you are well. Life has been crazy lately, and I’m convinced it’s not just me experiencing a cavalcade of changes and newness entering my life. So this week, I decided to write a bit about that. If you’re reading this WITH a paywall, feel free to subscribe for just $5 a month to receive every letter I send out, and as usual, if you are enjoying these letters or simply want to support, please hit the like/heart button that appears at the top and/or bottom of each letter. Take care yo, love y’all.)
It can be a bit nerve racking realizing how much one has changed and not being able to completely gauge or understand whether it’s been for the better or worse. I often read/see a lot of tweets/memes about how being 23 is the worst age, and while I don’t fully understand why, being 23 myself, I definitely wouldn’t disagree with the sentiment. Lately, a lot has been changing in my life, be it family stuff, work/career opportunities, creative goals, relationships, my spiritual levels, and overall sense of self, and while people often argue that all change is good, and I can usually get behind that, I also disagree to an extent.
Sometimes, change can be flat-out wack. It can suck, even be horrible or absolutely detrimental to your well-being and make your life far worse that it had previously been. So, when that is the case I believe it not wrong to say that change is not always good. However, what one can say for a fact, is that change forever works as a reminder, and even a chance at redemption and success in the future. It serves as a reminder that the nature of our existence is temporary, and that every hardship or tribulation we face will eventually come to pass. Its a reminder that without the hard times, the good times never taste as sweet. And it’s a reminder that only through gratitude and presence will we be able to find a reason to keep pushing and find trust in a bigger, better plan.
Over the past 3 years or so, I’d say this is the longest I’ve stayed home over a consecutive period in contrast to vacationing or leaving the country for any given reason for an extended duration of time. And while this is the most stagnancy I’ve experienced in terms of the direction I’d like my life to be taking right now, it just so happens to be the most turbulent period in terms of the lives and environments around me and in my life.